heya

man..you know how much it stinks to have one actual friend..i mean i've sat at home all day..well yeah i slept most of itbut geezi asked my mom if she wanted to do anything like go see a movie or something..and you know what she told me she told me to move out of her way cause she was watching tvso i called julie at work like teice but both times she cut me off..and yeah i know she is working but i mean yesterday i talked to her a good like 40 minutes while i was at worki tried talking to zack but he doesnt seem all that interested in talking anymore..which probably isnt on purpose..but stillhow much i crave to have a life to have something to do with my spare time..i mean is it crazy that on my days off i cant wait to get back to worki dunno maybe i'm just going sti-crazy right nowbut i feel so pointlessand i find myself so jealous when i read other people's livejournals..i find myslef wishing i had what they hadi think this is really getting to me more then usual..because like i feel so old like i dunno as if i were someone sitting around just waiting untill they diei'm nopt sad either..i'm just frustrated maybe i should put an ad outactually i will..watch i'll get no responsesFRIENDS WANTEDFor: Cathy SangiuoloAge: almost 18Race: WhiteHobbies: Working...Reading..music...(I live the life)Dreams: Just making itContact Info: either thru livejournal or my number is 332-6271if interested please contact

sleeping over...hmm good times

ha ha alright good times and thingsyeah tim and danny fender are crazyme and julie are over here...here being the fender housesleeping over...lying is so coolha ha "hi mom"

why is it...

why is it that things dont go as i want them to?anyways so yeah i had to go to bed early yesterday..cause today my day is like jammed..even tho i dont even work.. so much for a day offwell i went to bed at like 12 something but i re woke up at 2..didnt go back till bed till 5:30woke up at 8:15...pissed off and tiredwent to pslhs to sign a waiver for my transcripts b/c the bastards said i never did even tho i KNOW didturns out i didnt even HAVE to go b/c being that i'm not 18 yet my mom signed them..which really pissed me offthen i was gonna sun for a few hours..from 9 to 10:30 anyhow..but no there's no sunGREATfine so i was gonna go open up an account but i have to wait for my mom to drive my brother to ft peirce and for her to go to ircc before i can go to the banktimes like this i wish i were able to drivebut my deal is that all this shit has to be done by 12:30 cause then i have to go to the mall for my one a clock hair cut/highlight...then 'm supposed to meet julie at 2..for a day of shopping/hanging with these guys we met recently...that's all neat and everything but i'm gonna be so tired..looks like "OPERATION EAT YOUR HEART OUT ASSHOLE"..isnt off to a good start...

toda...

today was quite interestingwell per usual i worked....but then zack and tyler came in..i feel like calling him ty-ty..b/c i used to baby-sit this girl named taylor and we used to call her tay-taybut anywaysi sneakily gave tyler a discount...and he had the nerve to wear it as proof..ahh being nice should be a crimejust kidding but your welcome tylerhmm so anyways they left and me julie and sara ended up going to danny's house like after i got off of work..it was funzack and danny were the only ones thereat first i thought jules was checking danny out..b/c he didnt have a a shirt on..but then i realized she was focusing all her attention on trying to beat danny in tetriszack had to go to the bsthroom so he decided to go on danny's next door neighbor's drivewayjulie took pictures'email jules for pics at gossiper3000@yahoo.comstarting saturdayall in all i had bunches and bunches of fun..later...............

nothing much to say except...

for my entire life I've been like the social outcast and just when i think this crap is over b/c highschool is behind me I realize hmm I'm faced with it again..but you know what I'm sick of caringso if you dont like me then screw you cause i dont give a shit anymoreI'm not gonna try to make people my friends..they either are or they arentand please if you arent my friend then dont fake be nice to me in front of my face..cause that hurts worse..thanks

just re-capping

howdy..hmm I really kinda dont like that word..but anyways the past couple of days hve been ok yesterday i got a 3 dollar tip for heling this lady with the kodak picture makeri didnt wanna accept it but the lady was all like no, you take it then some guy hit on me while i was helping him out in the pharamcy..he asked me if i was a rock star and then he said he's see me on tour hmmmm today..today i was a bad girl..lol well not too bad i went into work later cause i was hanging out w/ julie but oh welllike Julie said we went to Zack's and we went the crazy long way it was ok..but things feel a little different ith me and zack...like i dunno tyler was playing good but maybe he's shy or something cause he doesnt face anyone when he plays yeah that lady outside in her bikini was way gross...tyler was so digusted...hmm and his geetar was heavy!...oh wehat happened at work today?..well sum drunk guy was picking up pics and he was like i hope you didnt develop my pics and then he was like flirting..i think..and then he's like oh you dont love me it's ok my mom does still..and then he was like are you married or something and i was like no..and he goes are you older then 20 and i said no and he was like damn..sometimes i wonder about people..like i dunno...btw julie i developed your ex-b'f's pictures and she really shouldnt take pictures of her butt...yeahhhhhhwell that's enough for tonight kiddos..but zack if you can later give me a call..i think we need to talklateroh hey danny ...that giy with the "neck chink"..was sexy..HAIRCC registration July 6th ...yay?...

I scre...

I screwed up

'sigh'..punch me in the eye..squint towards the sun in the sky

so yeah in like an hour..we're all going to take my dad out to eatbut i'm so freakin lazy I'm still wearing what i had on yesterdayphhhhh this has been my 3rd day off in 21 days..i cant wait till my vacationbut anyhow how do you guys feel about chinese food?my mom wants to go to this chinese place but i hate msg's they give ,e this weird taste in my mouth..yeah i know you can ask for no msg's but i dunno..then i fee like i'm saying screw you buddy because your food isnt good they way it is..hmmm i was thinking like just a regular place that makes all kinds of food..oh well..after that tho we're coming home and i'm gonna enjoy the rest of my off..watch tv..sleep..wake up watch more tv..sleep..go online..sleeep..wake up..perhaps sleep again?hmmmmmmmmlater cool kids!~~~CaThY~~~~~

i list...

i listed people's namesbut then i stupidly forgot to mention onesooooKIMBERthanks too..i'm really sorry..dont take that too personally..ok?you're totally awesome too!

BEAN!!!!!

Bean,Bean he's our man...if he can't do itI suppose someone else can..?Just thanking Bean for putting my creepy picture up..lolwell it's creepy to me b/c it's alot of smiling me's and uh..i dunno...weirdbut yeah Bean thanks..I dont care what anyone says about you everyou're super totally awesome in my book!

one thing to say

call me lame BUTZackBeanMullerTylerBryanAllisonjust thanx...

one thing to say

call me lame BUTZackBeanMullerTylerBryanAllisonjust thanx...

what do you do when you wanna have never been born..but you dont wanna die?

I dont know what's wrong w/ me...I feel that I'm falling againAnd I hate when I fall because I never see the bottomUntill I hit it really hardI feel that I should have nothing to be sad aboutYet it's getting too hardI really got fooled I really thought that this time I had itMy purpose..And now I've been remindedMy nightmare never left me..it just hid from me..But now like a disease it's consumed me againI fear this is the endNo more's to be saidDamn me for being so dumbDamn me for what Ive becomeDamn me I'm a horrible personDamn me I've fallenBut as I close my eyes one last timeOne more tear doth I shedFor the life that I leadFor the thoughts in my headBut you'll never get itGod knows I never did

so a sign felt the wind..saw my reason

hello!!!!!!!I havent wrote on here in a couple of days...anyways so i'm sitting here...dying of like heat exhaustiaon or something..like i went outside in a half attempt to get a tan ..nothingonce again nothingmaybe i wasnt meant to be any other color cept the one i amwell anyways julie how was the concert????prolly had a hell of a time punk!gosh i just realized i have NOTHING to sayso i'm gonna go get ready for work AGAIN..later~~~~CaThY~~~~

need sleep

julie and zack you both suck b/c you're going to concerts tomorrow night..and i gotta work

out in a spiff just give me sum jiff..left on spray bottle!

HAAAAAAAAAAAAayeah i dunno..like my title?so tonight was cool..I have to say it's good to have a general group of friends..it would be even better if julie were there tho..cause she's the best..and she's my best friend so...yeah julie...where you at?..lol ha..to danny bean..ADD ME TO YOUR LISToh add julie too----im_very_sorry is her name thingyand how are the goldfish I'm sorry i didnt get to see them but my mom's crazy weird...to zack..ehh what can i say...i really dont think I have to say much..just a mutal understanding..yeah?but thanx for a fun night peoples...SAVES THE DAY Cover Band RoCkS~!!!!!

wow....

yeah i woke up like 5 minutes ago and I have to be in work at 2heh..i guess it's my own fault tho...alright i gotta go get readybye~~~CaThY~~~~

put it back please

k so again I'm doing nothingmy life is uninterestingoh well but yeah so here's my deal today...I dont think my account's like right on this thing cause I cant search profiles...I cant post comments on people's profiles..basically I can't do crap on here..cept write...hmmm but I'm slightly better then I was last night/morning...not totally content but ok I guess..hmm I think I'm gonna go back to sleep now~~~CaThY~~~~~Quote of the day"Dream as if you'll live forever,live as if you'll die today"~James Dean...it's on my poster..

feeling crappy..dunno why

ehhI can't figure out what my deal is right now...I just feel..like bad..likehmmm what's the point...maybe i should just sleep then it might go away..it's weird cause I almost feel like crying.but ya know I mean..tis isnt something i donow i'll prolly come off as lame..oh well~~~CaThY~~~~~

so there's this kid..yeah?

ok..so this little boy last night thought it would be funny to pick me up and run w/ me thru the denny's parking lot..ha...well it's on zack..it's onas far as anything else goes i'm so bored..yeahhhhhhhhhhrighttttttttttahh whatever later!~~~~CaThY~~~~~

seven minutes standing lopsided

ok..so I'm really boredthis is supposed to be a journal..yeah?Might as well treat it as oneok so what did i do today...hmmm well I woke up crazy early (for me anyhow)like what was it 8...yep i had an appointment in stuart for what you wonder?..ha prolly not but nothing really..just something i had to do..yep so then i worked..."fun"...and uh now i'm homeehh.yep well i have one more lame day of work before i get my three days off..yay...hmmm ok this is kinda uh...pointless..oh well~~~~CaThY!~~~~~~

saves the day...YAY!?!?

well yeah just letting you know...zack that i'm going to the show..you wont beleive what i had to do in order to go..ha but i'll talk to you later~~~~CATHY~~~~

get me a coke while you're in there

yep so I'm sitting here..again...wondering about nothing..ha not sure if that makes too much sense.. no one commented on my stuff..which is to be expected I mean really what is there to say...but yeah...i decided not to put my picture on..seeing as i dont want any weird people emailing me or iming me..but yeah i'm gonna go~~~~CaThY~~~~~~

I HAD to do this..HA

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To be tired or not to be...uh tired?

okey.dokey..so this is the deal..I'm sitting here getting pissed cause it wont let mu upload my picture..being that I'm on the wrong computer...but i cant go on my other one..because umm people in my house happen to be sleeping...THIS FREAKIN SUCKS!!!anyways..i dont know what to say ....hmmmmso Zack told me to make a livejournal so I did..lame zack..lame..not the journal but you..HA...anyways i'm gonna put myself out of my misery...NIGHT!~~~~~CaThY~~~~~~~